VICIOUS DELICIOUS 2

Over the last few days

2011-03-22T11:20:00.000-07:00

Am getting just too fat. Life is moving too slow. can't wait for Beijing with friends next week.

FML

2011-03-10T03:02:00.000-08:00

Sara's :

You may find yourself becoming increasingly suspicious as the day goes on, especially as you thought you overheard an item of conversation that seemed to be hinting something about your latest love. Today's planetary alignment may increase rather than decrease your paranoia. But if you truly love your partner, you will take time to gently find out the truth, and this will help put your mind at rest

Mine :

The planetary alignment may bring about a situation that you find confusing. It seems that someone you have been close to in the past could have been whispering in the ear of someone you are close to at present. You realize that what they are telling your latest love is really a pack of lies - but how do you make your lover believe you?

My god.

Up up here we go.

2011-02-26T00:33:00.000-08:00

Here we go, come with me. There's a world out there that we should see. Take my hand, close your eyes. With you right here, imma rocketeer so lets Flyyyyy.

Fucked up.

2011-02-26T00:29:00.000-08:00

It is a saturday afternoon. No one's home except for me, winter & my maid.
I do not, i repeat, DO NOT have the mood to study. In fact i'm feeling pretty shittified. Can't be PMS. I just wanna fall asleep, to wake up & find it is still January 2010 whereby i'm enjoying my post O-level holidays.

But at the same time, i do not want to get kicked out of school just because, I DO NOT have good memory skills.

Please, God. Be with me.

Driven.

2011-02-20T23:04:00.001-08:00

I like studying OB. I will get my A.

xoxo

2011-02-09T08:50:00.000-08:00

Sometimes in life we hit the cross roads, & are forced to choose which path to take. & there's no way of knowing if our journey will take us to pleasure, or pain.

But once we've made our choice, there's no turning back.

Misses

2011-02-06T09:26:00.000-08:00

Can't wait for full moon next week. If there're 2 things i have missed alot in my life, they are my best friend, & the moon.

GOOD. Afternoon.

2011-02-06T00:14:00.001-08:00

Days like these where you wake up in the afternoon(of the real world; but morning of yours) & you feel so refreshed. Like everything's gonna be alright. Like, life's all laid out for you perfectly.

But then you realise, at the end of the day, that nothing's perfect.

Gosh.

2011-02-02T23:44:00.001-08:00

Chuck : Your life will be easier without me in it.

Blair : True. But what's my life without you?

Fate

2011-01-31T08:56:00.000-08:00

I will just take whatever life throws at me. Because i believe in Fate, i also believe that it has already been written & that whatever happens, happens for a reason. I will accept what is in store for me, try to make the best out of it & always go to bed every night with a sense of achievement; knowing i have done my best for that day.

After having heard what the astrologer said(yes, mum dad & i went to see one for myself, sis & bro), i am glad i have my career path planned out on the greeneries. But life is never perfect, thus the corruptions in my love life. Now, i feel like there is no point in finding for that special someone.

It's like, you know things will turn out this way, so you just give up trying.

But i don't want to hurt someone who loves me. Or atleast, think that he does. We'll see how things go.

Cancer Woman & Leo Man Compatibility

2011-01-29T11:14:00.001-08:00

Leo man and Cancer woman make one of the most beautifully romantic relationships in the world. They both deeply and genuinely admire each other’s minds, talents and accomplishments. The Cancer woman personifies the mystery of womanhood and all complex yearnings and the Leo man personifies the conquering charisma of manhood, wisdom and strength. Their togetherness forms such a miraculous statement of love both emotionally and physically that they experience the heavens on earth in each others’ arms. A Cancer woman is likely to bring out every ounce of passion in a Leo man while the Leo man makes her more beautifully confident and secure woman. The kind of love and oneness they share describes the overall existence of life on earth with the importance of the elements of Water and Fire giving both of them a fulfilling experience that last till end of the horizon and till the time they can walk in the eternity of their love.

As the Cancer woman and Leo man accept the differences in their personalities, they make one of the most physically appealing couple to each other. They will have a great physical relationship because the Leo man is very affectionate and the Cancer woman can aptly reciprocate his feelings. The Leo man can become very demanding in a physical relationship which is usually fulfilled by his Cancer woman, whereas the Cancer woman is quite sensitive which is provided by the passionately emotional side of the Leo man. They have a strong sexual bond because she is quite gentle whereas the Leo man has very intense emotions and this combination can prove to be a very good foundation for their relationship. She can hurt the Leo man with her changing moods due to which she may become less responsive to her Leo man at sometimes during their love-making. While the Leo man can become aloof and the Cancer woman might think that he has become indifferent. The Cancer woman feels safe in the haven of his arms because it gives her a strong sense of security and makes her feel loved and needed.

This is what happiness means. To me.

2011-01-29T10:52:00.000-08:00

I realise i have put on hell a lot of weight, & it's time i did something about it.

It's also time i stopped saying 'it's time to do something about it' & REALLY DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.

Happy birthday Mummy!

2011-01-27T22:30:00.000-08:00

You're 49, but taxi drivers still ask me if you're my sister. Love you mummy. <3

XOXO

2011-01-16T01:14:00.000-08:00

“It’s often said that no matter the truth, people see what they want to see. Some people might take a step back and find out they were looking at the same big picture all along. Some people might see that their lies have almost caught up to them. Some people may see what was there all along. And then there are those other people, the ones who run as far as they can, so they don’t have to look at themselves. And as for me, I can see clearly now.”

Uncertainty

2011-01-07T07:44:00.000-08:00

is the last feeling i'd ever wanna have now.

:)

2011-01-02T08:51:00.000-08:00

I don't know if i'm in Love with you. But i do know, i won't be able to live a day without talking to you.

Hi, i'm not dead. Yet.

2011-01-02T08:48:00.000-08:00

I thought i'd never have to have this feeling. But still, we're all humans & uncertainty plays a part in our lives. It's a feeling i hate the most. Even the feeling of betrayal, the feeling of hate, the feeling of pain is something i'd withstand. But the feeling of uncertainty is something i swear makes me wanna pull my hair off, & makes me feel like shit.

I just hope this doesn't die. I'm sorry, i'm just new to all of these. Things are awkward, & i'm hoping this phase will pass by in the blink of an eye.

Impatience.

I guess have 3 more months of singlehood left

2010-12-03T10:13:00.001-08:00

The planetary energy may encourage you to consider strengthening a bond with someone whom you have grown extremely fond of. You have both arrived at a stage where you know a lot about each other's faults and failings, yet above and beyond these you both feel that life without each other would not be worth living. You are happy to settle into a deeper and more committed relationship.

Simpang bedok!

2010-11-21T23:09:00.000-08:00

This was quite long back. For the hari raya holidays!

Best deepavali :)

2010-11-13T23:43:00.000-08:00

Thank god, there was enough space/food/seats for everyone. House was super packed, moving around was hard. But it was nice to have all your closed ones around you. :)

I had a very very very very very very good surprise from Sara.

Yesterday morning he told me he wouldn't make it to my house cause he was confined in camp. At first i thought he was just joking. & then i told him i'm gonna cry & usually when i do that, he'd say "Okay okay, don't cry. I never wanna see you upset." But he still prolonged it, said he was really sorry & all. I was so so upset, i didn't have the mood for anything else. I didn't wanna dress up anymore, i didn't wanna welcome guests anymore cause i was so disappointed.

In the end, i pulled myself up & said it's fine. There are always other circumstances for him to meet the family.

GUESS WHO ENTERED THE HOUSE IN TRADITIONAL, LOOKING LIKE A GROOM, AT 9PM. As shock as i was, i felt my hands trembling & i swear it was the best surprise ever. He's getting pretty good at his surprises & looks like it's time i learn from him! hehehe

So they left about 12 plus after the man u match. I had such an awesome time. I am so thankful to god for such awesome friends, family & what not.

Ouh & thanks to winter who was so patient & not rowdy with the guests.

ILML.

P/s Rest of the pictures in fb!

Saturday

2010-11-08T08:20:00.000-08:00

I love the camera that dukes' friends have bought for my sister. It's just damn awesome. With cameras like these, there is no need for DSLRs!

Anyways, speaking of saturday, i'm really really nervous. I don't even know if there's going to be enough space in the house to fit everyone. Which is an estimated no. of 60. There's definitely going to be more/less people & having to predict or assume is something i am not very good at. :(

I hope the food's enough as well, & no one has to end up sitting on the floor(-.-), or people have to leave fast cause they're feeling too stuffy.

Am i worrying too much? I tend to do this shit all the time. SIGH.

Happy Deepavali!

2010-11-05T21:58:00.000-07:00

My deepavali started off with Sara, & then to Sang's house & then lastly to Ramesh's house. Tonight shall be Sara's house(Another one), Rani Aunty's house & then the best, Guy3's place!! MUAHAHAHAH. Okay happy deepavali all. I have geog quiz to do by tomorrow. Damnnit

Failure

2010-10-30T00:56:00.000-07:00

Last year, around this time, i remember telling my classmates. "Next year, we're gonna celebrate halloween like mad cause because of our O's, we cannot make any plans." But guess what, looks like this year is an epic failure once again. But not because we have exams or whatsoever, but because no-freaking-body wants to pick up their damn phone. If you don't wanna pick up calls then why on earth do you have a mobile phone? Just dispose it & stop wasting people's time & energy.

How much would it hurt just to pick up a call & say something?

It's not fair because here i am with my bestfriend, trying out utmost to coordinate things & bring the class together, plan & all. & there you guys are giving no bloody shit response. As pissing off as it can get, i feel like telling you all to GO & DIE!!!!!!

IM DAMN PISSED OFF!! NEXT TIME WE'RE NOT PLANNING ANYTHING & YOU GUYS CAN GO AHEAD & PLAN YOURSELF.

& once again, God has taught me a lesson. At the end of the day, no matter what, through thick or thin, it's your BESTFRIEND STANDING BY YOU!!!!!

300th post.

2010-10-20T11:53:00.000-07:00

I find you beautiful. You know what you want to be in life. You're what every guy wants and needs by him. You seem kinda confused over things at times. You take time to judge on what you want. nevertheless , awesome soul. I don't find any flaw in you. I find you adorable. I find you mindsweeping. I find you , like a princess. I find you , occupying my mind atleast 1/2 a day.
2 weeks seems seriously like , more than 3 months ? Trust me. It feels like that for me. Idk for you. You try your best to stay or rather keep away from me but it's me who is comiing to talk to you. I find you , cute. I find you like the star on my Christmas tree. I like you , for whom you are. You said , I'll shower love on the guy whom I marry. All the love I can shower.
I'll do the same , that's if I get you. Or even if I don't , anyone who gets you ; is helleuva lucky guy. I'd wish him my bestest of all the luck and he'll have my utmost respect.
You're a gem.
In simple terms.

Poem

2010-10-13T12:34:00.001-07:00

Your eyes so marvellous. Your lips so delicious. I wanna stay cautious. But my heart is going anti-bogus. You smile like the flower lotus. We can be the princess and prince of a beautiful wide stretch garden ; like owners. But why is it today ; you're getting me all so jealous ? bit by bit ; I know you find it ridiculous.

Why?

2010-10-13T09:49:00.000-07:00

Do you think it's fair? For you to budge in just like that, & say whatever you've said? I was there. Well atleast i was about to reach the door to another world. & then you just had to come & push me back, make me fall a few steps. Why? Why're you doing this?

It's my fault. & if anything is gonna happen, it's gonna be my fault. Cause whatever's gonna happen, is whatever i have allowed for it to happen. I don't wanna disappoint him. I don't wanna ruin your future, & i hope you don't wanna ruin mine.

But please, don't stay. But..... don't go either.

:)

2010-10-10T13:33:00.001-07:00

Many more to come :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VICKNESH ARVIN PILLAY!

2010-10-10T13:32:00.001-07:00

Thanks for being such an awesome friend. & someone who never fails to cheer me up whenever i needed to smile. Hope you had a good 19th & i can't wait for our bowling session! :D

Poem no. 1

2010-10-07T09:09:00.001-07:00

I like the way , you run the show.

It makes me say , Dutchy baby oh oh.

You make my blood go so low.

Not only low but also travel slow.

Where's the cupid & It's pin sharp bow.

I want it to pierce your heart & make you glow.

Glow & go. Baby , give me another show.

MSN doesn't have the exact right emoticon i can use now in order to put across the exact right feeling im feeling right now.

2010-10-05T11:09:00.002-07:00

"Msn nor facebook never does express feelings or emotions.

Even over the phone.

Look into my eye and tell it all. It will show how me how your words come out of your lips ; like a lovely niagara waterfall."

What's a soul mate? I really don't understand.

2010-10-05T11:09:00.001-07:00

"A crush , is something for a short period. A like , is for a longer extend. A love ; is for your heart. A soul mate is for your life. you know , Like my wife."

Just wanna tell you that you should give your heart away carefully alright.

2010-10-05T11:06:00.000-07:00

"My heart is in a state where , if it's for sale; It would be the most expensive one. Cause it was used in all manners.

Not raw for a cheap sale.

I know things inside out.

Heart is a sacred thing too.

Give it to the right person , NOT even for a trial run.

Say I love you when you mean it.

Not once , when you do ; say it alot of times.

No man feels , fucked up or hurt or anything.

If he says he feels all negative after love.

it's not him who is affected.

It's his heart.

a deeply sunk heart."

When's your bday? Imma get you an empty book to fill in these poems

2010-10-05T11:05:00.002-07:00

"and give to you at the end of the day to browse them through daily before heading to bed knowing ; it's all about you."

More like lust at first sight.

2010-10-05T11:05:00.001-07:00

"Not lust , Not to take me away in a gust. You came , just. Give it a shot at , Us. Perhaps , you're not a need but a Must."

Do you believe in Love at first sight?

2010-10-05T10:47:00.000-07:00

"I don't. But, If you are asking me love at fight sight ; I'd say crush at first sight. Love is too deep and sacred to use.

Love is a whole new different thing.

Love is tr(us)t.

Love is many more.

Love doesn't come at fight sight.

never does."

Not so sweet confession, but it's sweet.

2010-10-03T13:55:00.001-07:00

I felt the vibe up my spine ; the moment I was in the situation.

You end my day daily ; like a blessing with benediction.

You took my heart in a great speed with an awesome acceleration.

Dutchy oh Dutchy , Will you give me a place ; to reside in your heart. Like an accommodation.

We may differ in various things. From A to Z. Rival like an opposition.

Just so you know , there was once. Once upon a time ; on you I had an Infactuation.

Take it right now ; like a sweet sweet confession.

I don't know what to say.

Bestyy

2010-09-29T10:22:00.000-07:00

Slept at almost 5 last night, woke up at 9 to meet best friend for breakfast at Tampines. Now it's time like these i wish i was living at tampines. Hahaha. Damnnit! Anyway, she followed me for F&B lecture(awwwww) & thankfully, we managed to pay attention & not get distracted. Never thought gladys & i would sit through a lecture successfully but we did! ;)

After that, went to white sands, walked around, ate brownie & 'wildboy'(orgasms i swear!!!!!) at mad jack. Walked walked walked, spent some time at the playground. Was so fun. Especially the swing. I swear i loved the feeling of the wind blowing against my face & when i'm high up & going down, the butterflies just fill my tummy. That feeling's just so nice!!

& then i taught gladys the weird yet fun way i used to swing on the swing when i was young. FUN RIGHT GLADYS PNG!!!

Slept in the 17 on my way back. When i opened my eyes, next stop was my stop (:

Old town white coffay

2010-09-28T07:33:00.000-07:00

After lecture met up with Gladys, Jeslyn & weifeng for a while to slack! Weifeng, so hardworking, while the 3 of us were watching videos & snapping pictures. As usuall. After that, met Jagan bestie for dinner to do some updating. Or more like, alot of updating!! Seriously, the advice he gives is the best. & i don't know how but he just knows me so well. He reminds me so much of my brother i swear. & scarily, they both share almost the same birthday!!

1HO1's having class chalet now, but i didn't go today because i wanna spend some time with my family. Now that we've just come together again after 3 years, i think i should be prioritzing my family. We've fell into the hole once, lucky enough to climb out of it. So it's best we prevent ourselves from falling into it again. F&B lecture tomorrow. I suddenly miss school & feel like it's good i've been going back. But then, supp papers next week. I need to study!

I swear i can relate to this so well!

2010-09-28T04:27:00.000-07:00

Can you feel me

When I think about you

With every breath I take

Every minute

No matter what I do

My world is an empty place

Like I've been wonderin the desert

For a thousand days

Don't know if it's a mirage

But I always see your face, baby

I'm missing you so much

Can't help it, I'm in love

A day without you is like a year without rain

I need you by my side

Don't know how I'll survive

A day without you is like a year without rain

The stars are burning

I hear your voice in my mind

Can't you hear me calling

My heart is yearning

Like the ocean that's running dry

Catch me I'm falling

It's like the ground is crumbling underneath my feet

Won't you save me

There's gonna be a monsoon

When you get back to me

Ohhhh baby

I'm missing you so much

Can't help it, I'm in love

A day without you is like a year without rain

I need you by my side

Don't know how I'll survive

A day without you is like a year without rain

So let this drought come to an end

And may this desert flower again

I'm so glad you found me

Stick around me

baby,baby,baby,whoaa

It's a world

No wonder

With you in my life

So Hurry baby, Don't waste no more time

And I need you here

I can't explain

But a day without you

Is like a year without rain

For once, i'm liking Selena Gomez!

I think

2010-09-23T06:49:00.000-07:00

I'm in love. Cannot wait for tomorrow.
:)

LML :)

2010-09-22T07:13:00.001-07:00

We're all moving back to bedok. For good. :) Home sweet home. Finally Deepavali, after 3 years!!!

VTVG REUNITES! God safe the neighbourhood ;)

I love how there's so much of passion in everything you do. Together with me.

DEVIL!

2010-09-20T08:55:00.000-07:00

Went to watch devil with the family & that movie is awesome! I think night shyamalan or whatever his name is... his movies are always nice. I think the twist in the movie was good. You guys should catch it!
So when i thought i would be residing at bedok for just a week, looks like it's gonna be life long. :) Whatever my feelings are,(they're very very mixed) it's good to end up where your childhood was. :)

Pretty nails

2010-09-16T22:11:00.000-07:00

We went to AMK Hub to get our nails done cause we had a voucher for Lady's Finger. Crazy bus ride back home! Finally got to drink KOI after a very very long time. & i think the people at the other side of Singapore, are really really different from the easterners. Serious! Scarily true.

I cannot believe this has happened. Who would have thought you'd be back? Why won't you or people around you just leave me alone :( Irony is, you don't even know this is happening. The only thing on my mind, "What are you gonna do if you see me there?"

& i don't wanna hurt the one who loves me, just cause i wanna see the one i Love(d). Sigh.

Nicholas Sparks, Dear John

2010-09-13T21:50:00.000-07:00

"Dear John, tell me everything. Write it all down, that way, we’ll be with each other all the time, even if we’re not with each other at all."

VICKNESH ARVIN PILLAY

2010-09-12T00:09:00.000-07:00

The one right at the top. Cause i was forced to blog about him you see!

HAPPY NOW?!

Vampire sucks!

2010-09-11T22:39:00.000-07:00

Supposed to meet at 6.30, but we ended up meeting at 8. Which is nothing new because being late is a norm for the both of us. (Actuallly, it's always Gladys not me.) Hehee. Anyway, we watched vampire sucks at marina square. Matt lanter looks wayyyyyyyyyy better than Robert pattinson. I've had a crush on him ever since i started watching 90210! Hotnessssssss!!
Sneaked subway into the theatre. Subway melts yumyumyum!!HEHE( You! YOU! Yes you reading this who loves subway :p)
Walked to esplanade, then slowly to boat quay. Caught the 2nd last train back to tampines.

I'm feeling really unfit & i need to start my hardcore workouts tomorrow. Last paper, F&B tomorrow. Wish me luck peeps!

P/s I'm preparing to sit for 2 sub papers already.

Memories

2010-09-10T11:02:00.002-07:00

Memories aren’t stored in the heart or the head or even the soul, if you ask me, but in the spaces between any given two people. When people drift apart, these spaces wear thin - what then, is left of these memories?

Shank's 21st

2010-09-10T10:56:00.000-07:00

I'm like super duper late but here's another 21 year old in my life.

Sigh, the attraction. Sometimes it just feels so shittified. Like you don't get it when you want it, & when you least expect it, you get it.

Love is the bridge that links 2 people's hearts.

2010-09-06T03:10:00.001-07:00

Exams :(

2010-09-05T10:24:00.000-07:00

The 1 month break is over & exams are here. Just in the blink of an eye. Ouh my gosh. Eversince i stepped into secondary 2, time has been passing very very fast. 3 years just like that! Principles of Management paper tomorrow & i so KNOW i'm gonna screw it. Gotta wake up in 6 hours. Wish me luck people. :(

It's not that difficult to Love

2010-09-05T07:04:00.000-07:00

Love isn’t as complicated as we make it out to be. It’s the most simple, most elemental, most pure, most beautiful feeling, emotion, whatever you want to call it that beats in our hearts. Unfortunately, it’s also the most intangible sentiment. We can’t quantify it.

Your ‘I love you so much’ could be so much less than my ‘I love you so much’ & there’s no way to prove who loves who more & therein lies the whole fucking problem. We’re never happy with how we’re loved. We complicate things. We make things difficult. We expect too much. We receive too little. We can’t accept that so we prod & push and ask for more & when we don’t get what we want, we question their love & affection because they don’t love us the way we love them.

They don’t love us the way we were told they should. They don’t love us the way we want to be loved & we don’t believe anymore. We lose faith. We allow ourselves to be consumed by hatred, by anger, by desire, by greed, by anxiety, by insecurity & we give up even before we try. It really isn’t all that difficult to love. We just have to love unconditionally, love selflessly, love altruistically, love acceptingly. We just have to love them the way we can, the way we know how & allow them to love us the way they can, the way they know how.

We just have to love loving them and love them loving us.

Goodnight world

2010-09-02T13:43:00.000-07:00

It's 4.45am. I am dead tired. & i must must MUST MUST mug tomorrow!! I mean, later.

Goodnight. :)

Real men don't need pick up lines

2010-09-02T02:29:00.000-07:00

My brother got this really cool pickupline book as a birthday gift from sangs. HAHAH. & there are some really really hilarious ones in it. Check them out :

1) Is it a burden being THAT beautiful?

2) Clearly all the other women are rough drafts, & you're the final copy.

3) I've had a terrible day & seeing a gorgeous woman smile always makes me feel better. Would you smile for me?

& this is the worse thing ever, please NEVER say it to a woman if you are looking for something serious from her:

Your father must have been a farmer, because you've grown some nice melons.

WHAT THE F******CK!

With the best memories of my life

2010-09-02T02:14:00.000-07:00

Happy Teachers' Day to all the awesome teachers out there!! Went back to PRCS yesterday. So nice to see everyone once again, after when? The last time was Prom night 2009 which was one helluva night.

Sitting in the classrooms made us feel like secondary 4s again. If there's one part of my life i wanna turn back to, it would be secondary school days. :)

After school, went to town to have lunch with Mrs Ong at tomato, somerset 313. We had so much of fun, taking pictures & all. Mrs Ong left, & we made our ways to E2Max at cineleisure which is a really cool place where you book a room, & you can watch movies, play PS3 or Wiii or whatever.

We had lotsa fun. It was so nice spending time with the 4/5 again. One awesome bunch of human beings!!

Met sara & the rest for dinner & got back home in a rush.

I love you 4/5. <3

Lips

2010-08-29T12:06:00.000-07:00

Went to watch the match between Galaticos & Dboyz today. It's cool how soccer hypes me up. I mean like, how many girls out there would actually bother to go down & watch their friends play soccer. Especially when it's expected for fights to arise. After that went to have dinner with Sara, Imda & Divya. After dinner, we actually went to the chua chu kang cemetery. We walked into the muslim cemetery till it was pitch black & then walked back.

I actually did that.

Almost got caught by mum today for something. THANK GOD. Everytime i sit on his bike, my heart runs a 1000 miles. If you're thinking it's love, it's more of the tension my mum would call me anytime. Gosh. & there's nothing i would change.

Cause you're amazing just the way you are. :)

I'm home

2010-08-27T12:45:00.001-07:00

I had a good night. :) 2 more days. Sigh. Seems so long now.

I have a question. What do i say when one says, "I love you" or "Love you alot." I mean, i don't wanna say it back till i know i really mean it. Love's a very big word, though it consists of only 4 letters.

Studying throughout these years

2010-08-26T23:34:00.000-07:00

2010
2009
2009
2007

HHAHA. I'm such a studious girl. I have pictures of me studying for every year. Cute or what!

Study study!

2010-08-24T20:39:00.000-07:00

I feel quite happy cause i've been studying quite abit for the past few days. Though studying with gladys can be a huge distraction at times, we still manage to cover an amount. & Just Acia at downtown east is officially the best place ever to study. The staff are so damn friendly. I'm definitely going back!(when i'm not broke)

Uh- Ouh. Yeah, i hear you saying that. :-S

2010-08-20T13:29:00.000-07:00

There’s something you’re doing to me, I can’t figure out what.
Talking to you, just strikes lightnings in my heart.
Looking into the mirror, my eyes are showing your reflection.
So boy tell me, is this is for real or is it all just an infatuation?
But what magic have you done, how come I’m not my usual self anymore?
No one has ever been able to do that & ouh God I wonder, what’s in store..

P/s He doesn't read my blog so here's an excerpt of our conversation... Hahaha...

*********** says:
hmmm
ok
me too la
her smile is priceless
nwadays i m missin her alot
don noe y la
hmm
u noe y??
everytime i wanna see her
talk to her
see her smile
make her smile whenever shes down
u noe y??

dutchy* says:
why **********?

*********** says:
i don noe
tts y i ask u
i always tell her whr i am
i don, i feel bad
watever i gg to do oso i tell her
tt day when i smoked in front of her oso i felt damn bad
didnt want to smoke actually
y am i like tt la
u noe y??
cause i don noe?!!\

Goodnight world. :)

Snip snip :(

2010-08-17T11:31:00.000-07:00

BEFORE
AFTER

I cut my hairrrrrrr. I mean, i didn't but the hairdresser did. Ouh my god, she snipped off 3 inches of my mane. SIGH. JUST SIGH. & i'm damn damn hungry right now. Maybe i should go to sleep..

HAHA

2010-08-16T08:16:00.001-07:00

Stop it with the airplanes & shooting stars already!

The story of my bestfriend :)

2010-08-15T12:20:00.000-07:00

I have no idea why i'm doing this post right now. I'll just make do with pictures first. Gladys png, for your birthday(WHICH IS COMING SOON I DIE) i promise to dedicate one whole post to you okay!! hahaha

& that's me in sec 2.
GLADYS PNG IN SEC 2!

sec 3

sec 4

Poly :)

Still standing strong. Still, she's the one who knows me the best. Still, she's the one who's company i love the most. Still, she's the one who makes me laugh 24/7. Still, she's the one who will listen to all my shit. Still, she's the by my side. Was, Still, & Always will be (:

My best friend

2010-08-15T12:16:00.000-07:00

I swear to God i cannot wait to meet my bestfriend tomorrow. REALLY!!

From tumblr

2010-08-15T09:06:00.001-07:00

You want to be the last person he thinks about before he falls asleep. You want to be his first thought when he wakes up. You want to be the one he texts or calls when he’s bored. You want him to hold you tight, never let go, and never hurt you like the one before him did.

The games the heart plays

2010-08-14T12:43:00.000-07:00

My heart was sinking when the silence was so loud. But then later on after god sent his messenger down to pass me the message, i think i can go to sleep in peace now. Goodnight world :)

Happy 22nd Tajjy!

2010-08-14T07:10:00.000-07:00

lataaa

shaaaaa

nusraaaa

mumu babyyyyy

The moment we knew Taj liked the watch, we felt a huge burden off our shoulders. Finding a birthday present for her(is it still considered a birthday present when it is something that is asked for, with many many conditions & criterias?) is like looking for a good man on planet earth. (ooops) hahahaha!

P/s I'm home alone right now =(

P/p/s I need to start studying + jogging

Thinking about my love life

2010-08-13T11:42:00.000-07:00

I was so broken. & then you came. You came with the ability to mend those broken pieces. You tried putting those pieces back together, you couldn't. I didn't let you, did I? Then sooner or later, you gave up. We gave up. You threw me so hard to the ground. Shattered. This time round, there were too many pieces. Just too many.

For now i'm pondering,

will anyone ever bother to come & find those missing pieces of me that have been shattered?

Life

2010-08-12T09:21:00.001-07:00

Life often works in reverse. People treat strangers more politely than their family or friends. People will ask a friend’s band to play their party for free, will call their best girlfriend to come over & cut their hair without a thought to payment, but would never dream of calling a mechanic they found in the phone book & asking them to donate their time & labor to fix a broken down car.

What more will anyone ever need?

2010-08-09T11:46:00.000-07:00

3 years & counting :)
5 years & counting. :)

It's very awesome how 4/5 is still together. & we've kept the promise we made that we'd spend every of the upcoming national days together, since 2 years ago. I just love them to every bit & pieces. It's wonderful how humans have the ability to actually make you forget all your sadness & make you happy, even if it's just for a while.

Okay i sound damn emo. But i'm not! I SWEAR! I cannot ask for a better phase of my life. (: HOLIDAYS BAYBEH! What do ya expect!!

Happy Birthday Singapore.
3 years ago.

My future home.

2010-08-06T12:23:00.000-07:00

I don't know why but nowadays, i'm thinking about the future alot.

=)

2010-08-06T00:55:00.001-07:00

Lub Dup

2010-08-05T13:00:00.000-07:00

My heart's beating very fast. My mind's running on a race of it's own. My lips are singing words it never did before. My lips are curving into a smile whenever i talk to you.

My heart opens, closes. Opens, closes. When will it ever stay in one place? Stop reading my mind, boy with a touch of magic in you.

TGIF!

2010-08-05T12:39:00.001-07:00

Gladys png won 2 tickets to the movie "Pope joan" through nuffnang's cervical cancer campaign. It is so awesome to have friends like her!! HAHA. Just joking darling, you know i love you although you are so bimbotic & so much like a typical singaporean!!! ehehehe
The movie is awesome. Gladys & i always end up watching educational movies like this which i think is a very good thing. You guys will never think of watching that movie seeing it's ad or whatsoever, but trust me it's a movie that is worth paying 10 bucks for! It's not out in the theatres yet so gotta wait for it to be released first!

Sawadika!

2010-08-05T12:34:00.000-07:00

Pink,pink,gray,gray! ;)

Went to suphalak's mum's restaurant at Lavender after school for seafood! She paid the full amount for us. I think thai food is just awesome. Yummayyyy!! Being in that mall felt like being in thailand. There were many transvestites walking around. ahahhaa!! & the thai supermarket is like freaking cool!!

My ride

2010-07-30T13:07:00.000-07:00

I really really cannot wait to turn 18 so i can get my license. Or rather, start taking it. Do i have to tell you guys about how much i cannot wait to get a ride of my own & tune it up to my own taste?

& i have a paper to do in 5 hours time & i'm still not asleep. Comm skills I didn't even prepare for it :( I am so screwed. Argh! But i cannot wait for tomorrow night. BBQ!

Will i ever

2010-07-29T08:09:00.000-07:00

I don't want to fall in Love
because im afraid
to give my heart to anyone.
Im too fragile to do that.
Im selfish, in that case.
Am i?

I will get there

2010-07-29T08:05:00.000-07:00

& i swear to God, before i die, i'm gonna be having my holiday in atleast one of these 2 places. Poseidon hotel at Fiji, or Ice hotel in Sweden.

Avec Mon Bestie

2010-07-21T10:25:00.000-07:00

Finally presentations are all over(for this sem) & my mind's a lil more free now.

IT'S SO FLUFFY IM GONNA DIE!! hahahaha Agnes is damn cute! & i can't wait for this friday!! I wanna watch so many movies! Ouh that reminds me, can't wait for saturday either. :)

Happy birthday SHA!

2010-07-18T10:07:00.000-07:00

Sha's finally 20.
I think we all had fun. Had lunch at Siam Kitchen! After that, went to changi for kavitha's bf's birthday. I think i had about 8 shots in total. After the 2nd shot my head was spinning, but then as i took more shots the highness was dieing down. Irony. Everyone was gone & as usual, i was the last one standing. Took the bus back home at about 9am. Got home, slept till about 4 only to realise 3/4s of my sunday was gone. Alright, school in 6 hours! DAMN! =(

School

2010-07-18T04:00:00.000-07:00

School's been such a hassle. Projects after projects after projects, presentations, assignments, etc. & that is why when friday comes, we're all high! I've been skipping lotsa lectures & even tutorials. I need to stop doing that not for god's sake, not for christ's sake, but for MY sake. :(

P/s i look so tired & worn out in my presentation pictures cause i went straight to school after mira's birthday chalet the night before =(

P/p/s that reminds me, i need to start sleeping properly or my complexion is gonna be ruined.

She's 68

2010-07-18T03:55:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday grandma.
Cause my heart will not stop hurting & my mind won't stop wondering.

No, im not gone

2010-07-15T09:57:00.000-07:00

Hot pot culture 2

2010-07-02T10:14:00.000-07:00

There are more pictures.. But i don't wanna upload them because the DSLR quality has been affected thanks to dumb facebook!! Anyway, thanks to ya all who came!! & FOR THE PRESENTS!! hahahaha.

Thank you very much

2010-07-02T10:12:00.000-07:00

So as they said, they actually organised something. They bought 17 doughnuts from J.CO & the can't blow away candles. I was huffing & puffing & i almost died!! Hahahha but it was so sweet of them. Thanks 1H01!! & Thanks for the barbie + panda balloon that attracted unwanted attention, & made unknown people wish me. It was a memorable birthday indeed (:

29.06.2010

2010-07-02T10:09:00.000-07:00

Was feeling really sick & really tired cause of the day before(didn't really sleep as i was not at home but was watching world cup) & thought of not going to school. But i ended up in school as friends called up & said they had organised something for me. I WAS LIKE WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT. ahahahah!!

Sheesha!

2010-06-26T00:36:00.000-07:00

Rushed down to bugis after school to meet the girls for sheesha!! Every moment spent is them is so enjoyable & precious! Tried orange flavour this time & i think it's the best i've had so far! Got home around 11. Now gotta meet the most memorable people of my life at 6.. I can't thank them enough. Though everyone's got projects, exams & etc coming up on monday, they still put aside some time for this outing just cause i said i wanna spend time with them for my birthday.
Speaking of birthday, feels like i just had my 16th. Now i'm gonna be 17, & guess what. Next year, i'll be................18. :)

What do you do when you have 2 hours break?

2010-06-22T08:39:00.000-07:00

This is what you do. Ouh but beware, if you have a lecture after 2 hours, BEWARE. Break will be extended to 4 hours. HAHAHAH Okay i guess ya all know what i'm referring to.

Back to school

2010-06-21T09:09:00.000-07:00

Watching myself when I'm taking strides but here comes the moon & it feels & it feels like an informer.
Quick run away hide before they see you, you know it is all, all a glow
Walking on water seems perilous now you got my trust & it feels, & it feels like sabotage.
When I'm pulling triggers back on myself you know it is all I know, is all I know.
And it feels so real from the outside looking in
And it feels so real from the outside.
From the out

I LOVE THE MOVIE

2010-06-20T10:36:00.000-07:00

Went to watch Raavanan & guess what, viky & gang were sitting right behind us. Wah, so suay! Anyway, 2 weeks of break is over. School starts at 9 tomorrow. I promised Vicknesh i'll be off my 1.40 & i have only 3 mins!! BYE! & before that, after a long time when i went back to see...

It's always like this at first with you, Cancer. You know something is happening but have no idea what. It's as if electricity flows through you. You're practically vibrating with emotion. You can feel other people's emotions, too. Begin by listening to your heart and feeling the sensation in your body. Only then will you be able to judge the intensity of your feelings. Could this be desire - or love?

Fucking scary or what. Nono, i cannot take another one...

Olympus ep1

2010-06-19T12:12:00.000-07:00

Though it looks kinda vintage(that's what i like about it), it's beautiful in it's own ways. Not only that, it has really really awesome,powerful features. OUH MY GOSH!! I WANT!

Happy birthday Alicia!

2010-06-19T07:23:00.000-07:00

The place where this swensens is situated is kinda cool! It's at ION, but it's some underground thing. I think it's kinda scary but at the same time, when you enter it, it's really nice. Well, just like any other swensens atleast.
ANYWAY, happy birthday Alicia! Unfair, you're 18 =( WELL I HAVE ONE MORE YEAR! I've waited for 4 years, just one more year shouldn't be a problem :)

My teacher once told me

2010-06-18T02:08:00.000-07:00

As we grow up there’s going to be many things that we don’t like. Hook-ups that mean so much to one person & nothing to the other. Girls who will like the same guy you like; you’ll meet new people who may matter more than others might, but the one guy who stays by you till the end will be the one.

The awesome view i had the past 3 days

2010-06-17T10:45:00.000-07:00

Beautiful!

Busy week coming up

2010-06-16T11:02:00.000-07:00

The dream i had last night....i wanna have it again tonight. Hahahha. & it's so weird, pass few days i've been such a heavy smoker in my dreams!!

Anyway,Supper at East coast park with Kavilan & 2 other of his friends(Prem & Thiru) was super duper fun!! We were at carls junior playing indian poker & the forfeits were freaking funny!! Videos will be up on facebook soon. Hahahah!! It's just so awesome laah. The feeling you get, when you hang out with friends who have the same interest as you.

It's like whenever any of us saw a hot ride, we'd point it out & all of us would start discussing about it. Just awesome!! & since kavilan just got his license, more than him being panicky about driving, the people around him were even more panicky. & how more small can the world get? Prem's my distant cousin as well. What the hell. In that case, everyone's related to everyone else. So scary. I don't wanna end up one day realizing my husband's a relative of mine. Crazy or what.
Passed 3 nights was awesome. I think this is how the feeling would be, when i go overseas to study. Though i did get homesick after the 3rd night, i think i'd get used to it. Just like how.............i'm getting used to certain feelings these days.

Ouh & guess what. It's the 2nd & last week of holidays. Monday,Tuesday,Wednesday's over. Grandma's coming back tomorrow(gotta go see her), meeting Jags for lunch,alicia's bday outing tomorrow night. Friday gotta finish up my RHT project on Hotpot, Raavanan at night with the usual tamil move clique. Saturday SA camp the whole day, then GSS with Kavilan again. Sunday shall be photoshoot at studio(Yes am going for a photoshoot), then bedok at night. Packed week or what. & I MISS THE TIME I HAD THE PAST 3 DAYS!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH,AWESOME!!!

You can lie all you fucking want. Lie after lie after lie after lie after lie. You will never live your life. You will live a LIE.

4 years & still counting

2010-06-13T03:06:00.000-07:00

This was us 4 years back!

Hanging out with these bitches, the best thing ever!! You need to laugh, you need to bitch, you need to be yourself, be with them & all of these will be fulfilled. Yesterday was damn bloody fun!! We went PS, made a fool out of ourselves, then walked to 313. It was super duper fun. Though i was feeling really really exhausted, because of the lack of sleep i had(as you can see my eyebags) being with them, time just passes so fast. & whateever happened at Plaza Singapura, i don't wanna talk about. I just don't want to. Ouh god.

Waiting for Kavilan to come pick me up so we can go for carls' junior at east coast!!

Feels peaceful

2010-06-10T10:52:00.000-07:00

Finally after god knows how long, i went to the temple today. It felt very peaceful. Like really. Well, not that every aspect of my life has been going smooth but after a very long time, i did feel that inner peace for that 2 hours or so. & the best part is, just when i was thinking, Kavilan called to tell me he passed his driving!! I'M SO FREAKING HAPPY FOR HIM!!! Like seriously, i don't know why but i just feel super duper duper happy for someone else, for the first time in my life. Maybe it's cause it's his third time & i know how much this means to him. So happy i even told mum about it & she was sort of feeling me as well. Hahah damn cute!! He says he'll try his best to rent a ride tomorrow & drive down to tampines! I HAVE to reward him!

Hot pot culture!

2010-06-09T10:52:00.000-07:00

I think it's damn wasted! The food was so awesome but i didn't have the mood to eat alot. Guess it's cause the last meal i had before the buffet was 24 hours before!! WASTED!! I feel like i should go back & finish up the food i left behind. Anyway, i think we had a good time, & not forgetting good food. Thanks Zhiling for the recommendation! Definitely going back there again!
After HPC, met Vijay at tekka cause he needed to get his friend a gift. Then met mum & sis at Sandra's house. Tomorrow, am going to the temple & guess what!! FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE AM WEARING A WHITE SARI!! AM SO EXCITED!! I'll try take some pictures =)

Jeslyn's bday chalet

2010-06-07T23:31:00.000-07:00

She's turning 17 coming 10th but just like every year, we had a birthday chalet! Though most of the 4/5s couldn't be there, still some of us(oops, only me & weifeng) managed to get together again. What matters is spending time with each other (:
Time's flying very fast. Very very very very very fast. & i can't wait for this weekend!! Waiting for jags to come pick me up!

2010-06-05T23:28:00.000-07:00

It is strange how you think that you are all set to go with one particular relationship, when out of the blue something happens to adhere you firmly to someone else.

Going for a drink

2010-06-04T05:47:00.000-07:00

I hope he has not fell asleep -.-

So we ended up at a coffeeshop near bedok reservoir. After dinner went to the reservoir. It has changed so much! Still think there are too many lights though. It's very sad how certain things a certain someone does, reminds you of someone else. & i hope mum lets me out tomorrow, despite the nagging she gave me over the phone just now cause i was 1 hour pass my curfew. Mum, tomorrow's a really really important day for me THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!