Jeslyn's bday chalet

She's turning 17 coming 10th but just like every year, we had a birthday chalet! Though most of the 4/5s couldn't be there, still some of us(oops, only me & weifeng) managed to get together again. What matters is spending time with each other (:
Time's flying very fast. Very very very very very fast. & i can't wait for this weekend!! Waiting for jags to come pick me up!

It is strange how you think that you are all set to go with one particular relationship, when out of the blue something happens to adhere you firmly to someone else.

Going for a drink

I hope he has not fell asleep -.-

So we ended up at a coffeeshop near bedok reservoir. After dinner went to the reservoir. It has changed so much! Still think there are too many lights though. It's very sad how certain things a certain someone does, reminds you of someone else. & i hope mum lets me out tomorrow, despite the nagging she gave me over the phone just now cause i was 1 hour pass my curfew. Mum, tomorrow's a really really important day for me THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!

It's either this or that

Imma leave it all alone! I just want your friendship, that's enough for me! :)

Im so fucking pissed off right now because of my dumb neighbour. What else would a dog do, if he's not gonna bark & protect his house? It's like telling a human that it's a crime to talk. Wah, i think this is darn darn ridiculous. I just don't wanna do the moving shit all over again. Am so sick & tired of it. Like seriously. GOSH, give me a break. Like a real one, for god's sake!! I realise it's been long since every sector of my life went smooth. When one goes really well, something else will cock it up. Ouh & guess what, i screwed my RHT paper big time!!! =(

He'll come along

Been ages since i ever heard something that made my heart fly.

I know what i want

You wanna know what the truth is? I still like you & i probably will like you for a very long time. But i can’t just be your buddy, because as much as i enjoy the concept of being “just friends” in reality it’s a bizarre form of torture & I’m just not willing to participate in it. So right now what i wanna do is just move on & get over you & the only way for me to do that is to not be around you anymore. Period.

Break

After 2 days of papers, i finally have a break tomorrow & then my next paper will be on Thursday. Thursday will be the field trip assignment to Hot pot, Friday shall be the day with one of the bestest friends ever(can't wait!!), Saturday shall be another awesome day(am looking forward to it!), Sunday shall be Jeslyn's bday bbq. So fast, it's already June. Sigh

I don't think waiting for someone is silly. When you’ve found your once in a lifetime, any time is worth the wait. But then again,sometimes you just have to let go & forget what is it you feel & just remember what you deserve. You can go after what you want & once you know it doesn’t want you back, then so be it. It doesn’t deserve you anyway.

You're gonna see that at the end of these 3 years, i'm still holding the bet we had. You'll feel upset. You might feel agitated with yourself. You WILL feel a sense of regret. Cause i told you didn't i. I keep telling you, i'm not like them other girls. I'm not like the other fucking fishes in the fucking pond.

GSS is here!

The view from Orchard Central Rooftop Terrace. If you haven't been there, then you're wasting your time. Okay, but not that i want all of you to go there because the crowd will ruin the peace & serenity that you get from standing there. Lucky me, i got to be there on a full moon night. The view is just so breathtaking. It's when we stand at places like these that we realise little little things like these can actually make us so happy. Well that applies to me, but i don't know about you people there.

Am i weird? Hell no assholes!!

The one

He hardly ever falls asleep in any one's arms! & when he eventually did, he was probably the most most most adorable,cutest,lovablest thing i've ever seen in my life. :)

4 in a row!

One more was still in class, but we still save a piece of cake for her. AFTER LIKE god knows how many years, after much persuading from my classmates, i put a piece of chocolate cake into my mouth & guess what, i ACTUALLY LIKED IT. It was just so awesome!!! Okay but this doesn't mean i like chocolate now.. It's just this one cake. hahahah!! Anyway, happy birthday Geminis :)

Bistro

One of the reasons why i love going there's cause cousins get to reunite & most importantly, i get to talk to aunty shamini. Talking to her makes me feel motivated :) Someday, i wouldn't wanna be like her, but i wanna be better than her.

:)

He heaves a sigh of relief & falls asleep in my arms, not knowing his little actions actually made someone's day. My day. =)

Loved you enough to let you go

You come to a point of your life that you know you are very very very very sure about something. You know you're over & done with something but then SOMEHOW, it just has to come back once in a while to remind you it was a part of your life at one point of time. What do you do when that happens?

I'd just say fuck off.

So at that point of time we were not grown ups then what, we're grown ups now? I bothered about you & that's why i chose that decision. After so long, i went to check my horoscope & true enough,
The current astral configuration could bring you face-to-face with someone from the past with whom you got along so well but turned sour. You may be tempted to ignore them or brush them aside because of these memories. But time may well have changed them, so it may be wiser to give them a chance. Back then you were both much younger and inexperienced - now you know better.

THIS IS DAMN FREAKING OUT.

Happy birthday my one & only =)

You're 17 but you still act 7 Leon lee. Hahaha. I love you to the max. I'll never forget all the things you've done for me, & everything we've been through. Everything from the fights, to the phone calls to the webcam to the hanging out to the dates! Whatever happens, i know you are definitely someone who has left an impact in my life. You've taught me so many things i'll never forget. You're just the bestest bestest bestest guy friend anyone can ever ask for. =) & you know i mean what i say right. You know i'll always be here for you no matter what happens. & by the way, make sure you get me the cake i asked for, for my birthday okay? HAHAHAHAH JOKING JOKING! LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE YOU!

Ah choo!

Boat quay last night with bestfriend brought back lotsa memories i chose to reminisce only for that 4 hours. After that, it was like stepping out of the hole i know i was in all these while. THANKS GP FOR THE AWESOME TIME ALWAYS!!! What's up next friday then! hahah. Every week i look forward to friday because it's like a getaway for me. :)
I'm planning on going for a jog again but i've been sneezing & sneezing. I'm waiting for it to start to drizzle so i can jog in the rain. hahaah. Later off to changi village for ramesh's birthday. Everyone's gonna be there......... sigh

Another comes along but it'll never be the same

People can leave anytime.. But we still hope against hope that they don't anyway..

I'll never ever go on it,with anyone else but you. Never.

They make your life worthwhile

When you love someone, you put their needs before your own. No matter how inconceivable those needs were, no matter how fucked up, no matter how much it made you feel like you were ripping yourself into pieces.

Joan says i can become a writer already. Hahaha.

PMSing weather

Today's the first Monday eversince school started that i actually had a good time. I think classes passed fast,lessons were easier to concentrate on & i managed not to fall asleep. After school i joined the girls for project & then we tried to find heels for Joan. Can't believe that girl doesn't even have a pair of heels. What's a girl without a pair of heels?

You know.. I'd rather be alone than have somebody who is half there or doesn’t want to be there. Sigh. Guess i'll never know what you ever wanted till the end.

Contemplating

I think these sarees are so gorgeous!
Aunty called me in for modelling for StyleMart & i told her i'd think about it. I wanna make some cash for myself real badly because i wanna earn my own bucks. I think it's really cool how a poly student earns her own bucks & buys everything using the money she earns. Awesome. Though i loved working at F.I.S.H, i want a new experience. & after Aunty's recommendations & advice on me last night, i feel this would be a good experience! What do you think people?